I Was Dead

i was dead
i came alive
i was tears
i became laughter

all because of love
when it arrived
my temporal life
from then on
changed to eternal

love said to me
you are not
crazy enough
you don't
fit this house

i went and
became crazy
crazy enough
to be in chains

love said
you are not
intoxicated enough
you don't
fit the group

i went and
got drunk
drunk enough
to overflow
with light-headedness

love said
you are still
too clever
filled with
imagination and skepticism

i went and
became gullible
and in fright
pulled away
from it all

love said
you are a candle
attracting everyone
gathering every one
around you

i am no more
a candle spreading light
i gather no more crowds
and like smoke
i am all scattered now

love said
you are a teacher
you are a head
and for everyone
you are a leader

i am no more
not a teacher
not a leader
just a servant
to your wishes

love said
you already have
your own wings
i will not give you
more feathers

and then my heart
pulled itself apart
and filled to the brim
with a new light
overflowed with fresh life

now even the heavens
are thankful that
because of love
i have become
the giver of light



---- RUMI

ALL APOLOGIES...

APOLOGIES...

i dnt have nethn 2 hide nemore...
i tried painting my face...
i tried tht scented powder...
i tried lookin away from the mirror...
i even tried hurling tht single
piece of stone from my soul..
it didnt break...not even a single scratch
mirrors have always been strong in my life...

i owe u a little more than my little life...

APOLOGIES for foolishly tryin 2 ignore your fierce stare...
APOLOGIES for tryin 2 distort the face looking back at me for selfish reasons...

ESTELLA is sick...

burn me all u can
hate me all i deserve
hurt me till u tire your speech
kill me till im scared of takin a rebirth...

u deserve 2...
u ALL deserve 2...

i have been a hurtful megalomaniac in search of somthn tht does not exist ...
should not exist as long as the mirror is breathing...
i started somthn tht i didnt have the right sense 2 end,coz of the simple fact tht it shdnt have been started in the first place...

so

burn me all u can
hate me all i deserve
hurt me till u tire your speech

but when ur busy slaughtering my maligned soul...
plz remember to overlook my ESTELLA...

SHE IS SICK...

L.O.V.E.